to tell you the truth, i have been quite disappointed with tabulas now because it used to be this very modest but feature-packed blogging tool that is both user friendly but advanced (of course, the user must also both be friendly and advanced sana. hehe). but now, because of its super increased popularity, sadly because of users who don't really post anything but mundane posts, kahit yung friends limited na.

well, i miss the blogging world but i'm sick of tabulas. livejournal is nice too, but it isn't as good as tabulas, despite the seemingly "drama club stereotype *COUGH*" crowd there who are both intriguing and fascinating.

i found a new blogging site though, which is just as good as the old tabulas, and i hope worthy people will populate the said site. hehe.



i'm moving there now. i'm still using a template, but it looks quite good. maybe i'll upload a template or whatever, but that's good na rin coz i wanna focus on my writing. or something. hehe.

consider tantrum ego and better than your instinctus as good as dead. it was sad though. i hope maenganyo ko rin ang iba sa inyo into joining pNU. hehe. it's rather dead there too rin kasi, sayang lang yung features. kaya mabuti pang magjoin na kayo ngayon kaysa sa pag sumikat na siya kayo magjojoin. based on experiences in friendster, livejournal and tabulas, features are lessened once the site becomes popular. hehe.

i haven't slept a wink since 6 PM yesterday... roughly 14 hours ago. sigh. insomnia, or inversed circardian rhytms in my case, will subside, but will never leave me.

and time plays with me as always. i mean, the whole universe is at the gripping mercy of it, how am i an exception? only to god does time concede, and even god respects time because he works with it (oh god what's taking you so long or o god why did it all happen so fast wah wah wah).

i've realized this because i know for a fact that after this weekend i'll be back to the hassle that is school which i actually miss. jesus. the hours seem so long, but the days come by so quickly. and you don't have to take my word for it because it's a timely fact.

the scary thing is, i haven't been out of the house since the sembreak started (which was october 28). not even to churches or cemeteries or even malls. yes, just in the confines of my dull abode, wishing that i will not be inflicted with xeno/claustro/agoraphobia. the most productive thing i've done during my pseudo-house arrest is reviving thoughtless for the day. i might turn it into a site someday. but i've seen these hopes before. they never see themselves in reality's point of view.

so far, in my TFTDs, i've written about heavy topics: divine intervention, ghosts and vulnerability, communication, nickname incorporation, time and nostalgia, and beauty slash asymmetry slash schizophrenia.

ho-hum. what a bore you are, jei. what a bore you are, juju. [the both of] you need sleep. now. you know it because you feel it in your ass. heheh.





PS: a belated blessed Death Days to all of you!

the idea was from one of faerytales' posts. hehehe. i posted this one on friendster as well. i also realize that it has been more than a month since i last posted. well, here goes.



This is a different kind of survey. It's a survey that gives you total control. You are just given 20 numbers, no questions or whatever. You just fill them up with 20 random facts/information about you. With all the freedom in the world.

Perhaps, you'll find out, this is the kind of survey, the one with no questions, that is the most difficult, or at least the longest to answer.

TWENTY THINGS ABOUT ME:
[ 01 ]
-- i had just finished reading paolo coelho's eleven minutes.

[ 02 ]
-- i am still fascinated with it's story.

[ 03 ]
-- three common misconceptions people have about me: smart, filthy rich and responsible.

[ 04 ]
-- i am a child of love.

[ 05 ]
-- i don't understand why one would call a love child something as derogatory as "illegitimate" at the same time.

[ 06 ]
-- i am bisexual...

[ 07 ]
-- ... but i prefer boys better. hehe.

[ 08 ]
-- girls find me interesting and unique.

[ 09 ]
-- i wish boys did so, too.

[ 10 ]
-- but if they did, i wish they wouldn't be intimidated by the "unique" thing.

[ 11 ]
-- i am loyal but i am not faithful.

[ 12 ]
-- i'd rather watch an episode of the simpsons or spongebob squarepants that i've seen a gazillion of times before than 98% of anything else that's on TV.

[ 13 ]
-- i love asian horror movies.

[ 14 ]
-- i love amusement parks.

[ 15 ]
-- i hate vegetables as much as i love asian horror movies and amusement parks.

[ 16 ]
-- i find cows funny and elephants adorable.

[ 17 ]
-- i'm not really sure what to write for number 17.

[ 18 ]
-- i love writing and am deeply inspired by jessica zafra's freshness and cynicism, paolo coelho's simplicity but impact on humaness, and jose rizal for his idealism.

[ 19 ]
-- i'm not an insomniac. i just have an inversed body clock.

[ 20 ]
-- i'm planning revenge on all the boys that have gone and went throughout my young life by getting a mega hot, i.e. Saharic, body once i get out of high bloody school. and as they drool over that cover girl in god knows what magazine(!), they'll regret all those years of not ever noticing me.

hahaha. but then again, i'd have to give up on chocolates and twister fries, and big macs... and kfcs... and pizzas, and tater's popcorn and onion rings. syat. but then again, what else could be sweeter and more delictible than revenge? hehhee.

PS. like i said, i am inspired by jose rizal's idealism.

[ finally, who are you? ]
-- i'm jei. have a nice day. yay!

it has been a while. you would be expecting me to say something better, more insightful, more rigorous, more spiritual, having lost touch from the wide wide world of the web for quite some time. but really, truly, madly, deeply, (lalala...) all there is for me to say is this: "BLAH."

i am so, well, blah, right now. i am an unhealthy concoction of jaded-ness, weariness, procrastination, purposelessness, broken-heartedness, mediocrity and paper-bag-over-my-head-syndrome-ity. hehe. and i believe i had upset quite a few after reading this.

blah. i deserve this. i didn't and still don't believe in cursed chain letters, other than the fact i'm a very, very mean girl. hehe.

well, to tell you frankly, this all fuc-kyou-bi-tch attitude all started because of that stupid lasalle application thing. it made me remember a lot of things i've buried in the mountains of Memory and it made me realize a lot of things that are and that aren't. sigh.






LITTLE PRINCE: "oh, i understand you all too well, but why speak in riddles?"